here we go again

not wanting to go back to work is standard for every weekend, but things are a little different this night, looking hard at the dawn of another year lost to complacency.

my job is a massive time-sink that only provides a paycheck, and the supposed benefits are outweighed by the lost hours, the adverse effects on my mental and physical health, and the fact that ultimately i’m working hard in a field i have no interest in. this isn’t valuable training, it’s not a career i’d choose, it’s just a paycheck and really only an obstacle to my true goals.

i’d like to believe that starting space cube will help, but that feels naive. more likely it will simply remind me of everything in my life that is not going to according to plan.

starting space cube is a life goal that transcends this kind of years-end bullshit. my real new years resolution is to find somewhere else to work.